*yaWn*

and so... it's another fine day... morning... night..... damn this confusion never ends does it? :P i'm in a goofy kind of mood... anyone ever been here before? where everything that could possibly go wrong with the world around you does go wrong and shows significant indications that it will continue to get worse until u can't possibly handle it anymore... as if it only wants to prove to u that it's much much stronger than u? (by it, i'm referring to the great unknown force that defies all 'good' if there ever was any and is the only perserverer in the evilness it injects into my veins..). but hey... deviating from the topic under discussion if there ever was one... isn't there a certain twisted fun in being just that tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiny bit more evil then u were a day, a month or even a year before today? (cause u surely can't say u've been good in the past... or can u... ummm... or is that just me... errr... never mind :P... ) isn't there? awww come on, u have to admit there definitely is...... who can deny the gleee (i can't believe i used a word like that, but i can't for the life of me think of a word that could better fit the situation!) that crosses one's heart in that flash of a moment where the realization strikes u that you have indeed been..... evil? who can deny it? not i, said areej!

i said something mean to somebody today..... i hurt somebody today..... i didn't feel that happy sense of accomplishment i sometimes get out of being mean to someone i think well deserves it......... i didn't feel it today. does that mean i've been *gasp* a good person today? ............................... iiiiiiiiiii think not!i think it's just that sometimes you find someone or something in your life...... that u just can't hurt without hurting a million times more for hurting them...

u know what i mean? i think i'm asking too many questions today... *stretch*